Repressed Sickness

Repressed sickness? Really?

Well, all of you must think either i am suffering from psychosomatic pain or some sort of mental break down. But yes, repressed sickness.

Why repressed? Well, it seems like my 7 months medical leave was put to good use, where i was all healthy except maybe for my busted knee, no fever, food poisoning or migraine. That 7 months, after i could walk that is, I had some great holidays and even worked part time without getting sick.

Now when my health is supposed to be in top form, I've been having back to back illnesses. The second week entering my medical posting, i got food poisoning and a bad one. The next week, i contracted a bacterial infection from my sister, resulting in pharyngitis and fever. To top it up, i got drenched in the rain and ended up with a secondary viral infection. This week's chef's special would be migraine...

I think all these illnesses might be my body's way of telling me, it's not strong enough to fight off the world. Well, it might not be. Since, i think all the inner clockworks are messed up. Why messed up? Beats me...

Things are not fine. I have this anger festering in my heart for someone close to me, a family member so to say. The way that person have been treating me off late has been some what rage inducing. To think, i finally stopped ignoring this person just because it was childish.

I don't know. Maybe i'm being overly emotional and sensitive. But then again, i have always been that. I keep everything repressed until my body has to go through all the length to tell me that i'm repressed.

Enough talk about repression. Just finished watching Julie/Julia. Now, salivating over the idea of making myself some Bavarian Chocolate Cream. The idea isn't bad, but the approach will be since i am lacking in funds and the necessary crockery.

Oh well. It's 6 a.m. here and i now have a major stomachache. I should go to bed. Chiao!~

P/S : My favourite word today is  Boeuf Bourguignon